She's gone

She's gone...

A prayer needed - update 3

Phone calls in the middle of the night is always a nightmare. It's almost always never good news. I received a call at 3.30 am this morning. Lilibeth is on life support after her heart beat dropped drastically. For the first time, I cried after getting that phone call. I don't know what else to do but to pray and to seek for everyone to pray for her.

A prayer needed - update 2

Lilibeth is still in a coma when I visited her yesterday afternoon. It was her birthday. I wished her "Happy Birthday" and told her to keep on working on getting up. The doctor said that there is a high chance that she can hear us speak. She had a slight fever and her hands felt slightly cold. I did notice though that when they are held and lightly massaged, she seems more relaxed and her heart rate will slow down slightly.

Her hands and legs are have shown some slight involuntary muscle movements. We are taking that as a positive sign. No matter how small the improvement, we take it as positive as possible. She will be going through a small surgery to ease her breathing through her throat today. I feel sad for Aunty Maria for having to go through all this test. It breaks my heart to see her holding on to Beth's hands everytime and to see her eyes water when the other patients around moves out of the ICU unit into the regular wards. It's been 6 days. I'm really praying for a miracle to happen. I hope you all out there will pray for her to get well too.

A prayer needed - update 1

I rececived a call yesterday morning that Lilibeth has been transferred to KLGH for an emergency surgery to drain the fluids from her brain and to reduce the pressure. The surgery is a success and she's warded in the ICU unit for close monitoring. Praise the LORD and also the medical team from Kajang Hospital and KLGH for not giving up and working at such a speed. Now, we're just hoping that she will pull through this period and wake up from her coma by this week. I managed to drop by the neurology ICU ward in KLGH to see her. Her vital signs look good and I hope she gets lots of positive vibes.

Honestly, I didn't have very much faith with our govt. hospitals initially (can't blame me for that after seeing and hearing all the horror stories and long waiting periods there) but after seeing how they acted and took care of Lilibeth, I was indeed glad. I'm also very sure that a lot of these good things are happening because of your prayers and good wishes. I'd like to personally and humbly thank those who did. There's nothing more meaningful than a prayer in confidence for another person.

A prayer needed

I received a very sad news yesterday afternoon. A good friend of mine had a fit attack yesterday in her office and was rushed to the hospital. They did an MRI scan and found that she had a brain hemorrhage. It was something that had occured for quite a long time, it's just that she was not aware about it. Now she's in the Kajang Hospital ICU unit fighting for her life.

I need my dear friends and readers to pray for her health and to give her and her family strength to fight through this trial period. Every prayer counts and wish to thank you for doing so.

Reality of being a mature & responsible person

I was going through my bills last night and making payments out and realised that my overhead is actually damn high! I can't imagine that society's idea of being a responsible mature person means putting yourself into a huge pool of debts. I mean, think about it, here I am with a car loan, property loans, business loans, utility bills (at least 6 every month), car maintenance, credit card bills, insurance, gym membership, groceries, emergency cash, etc... wah!!!!! No wonder there is hardly any moolah at the end of the month for savings! It's kinda scary once we actually put everything out on the table. I tabik lah to those, after paying all the above and still have extra to spare for luxuries in life.

Indeed it is not cheap to live in KL anymore. Even if one is to compare the demography with other cities around the world like New York, London or Tokyo, one must not forget, we are only earning RM, not USD or Pound Sterling! So, compared dollar to dollar, so to speak, it is very, very expensive to live in KL.

So, here I am now mapping out on what options I have to reduce the overheads (which should be essentially short term), because nobody wants to alter their lifestyle too much, right? The next big thing is to try to pay up the property loans as fast as possible. Not easy, I know... but somehow this has to be done, especially when there is more than one to worry about.

Anyone want to hire part time???

At peace on Aidilfitri

Elow you alls!!! Firstly, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my Muslim friends and readers. Minta maaf jika ada yang tersilap, tersingung and all the other "ter's' that you can think of lah. Hehehe... So, we start back zero-zero ok!!

Anyway, didn't do anything this Raya... no visiting, no merry making, nada!!! I packed my bags and went to an undisclosed place to recuperate from all the activities last 3 weeks (finishing up my client's house before Raya, entertaining the family from US, and generally from all the shit that life throw at me everyday). So, yes... it was a good three days of not doing anything except to vegetate, meditate, read, watch loads of DVDs and sleep.

Hope this euphoria wil last a lot longer than the previous one before I become this high strung, overworked, workoholic again. But at least I managed to do a lot of soul searching and also managed to map out what would make my life more meaningful. It's not easy to make peace with oneself for all the challenges that comes along in life. It's easy to get angry and blame all that shit at people, God and everything in general. But it's not so easy to forgive and to move on. Well, this 3 days thought me a lot about that. It taught me a lot about making peace with others, and more importantly, with myself. Now I am clear on how to move on with a clear head and without emotional baggages in tow. I have a lot of people to thank for that. More importantly, I have God to thank for showing me the way and by answering my prayers most of the time.

Well, enough of emo rantings.... I'll be posting pictures of the little circus troupes soon during our recent trip to Langkawi. They are a handful yet they are so adorable and I am already missing them terribly. Hope I'll be able to detach away from work next year to make a trip over to the States to celebrate one of the boy's birthday. So, watch out for this space soon.